Enjoy.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Ah, what a lovely Christmas present!
[REPOST FROM 12/20/2007]
Christmas trees, candy canes, holly, lights, singing, and snow; typical reminders of the Christmas season. Hows this for some alternate keywords for Christmas: Cancer, inoperable, Alzheimers, prognosis, and fatal. These are my keywords this 2007 Christmas season, and I have learned today that my 67 year old father, who already has Emphysema and Alzheimers, also has inoperable lung cancer. It was some time ago that exams were ordered to discover the reason why my father was having difficulty breathing. The tests revealed a spot on the lungs, approx. 12 mm in lenght. The biopsy yesterday confirmed it is indeed lung cancer.
Further tests were conducted. It was determined that it is a type of large cell, slow moving cancer. However, the physician and surgeon both agreed surgical removal is impossible, as it is too dangerous to take my father off his blood thinners (because his risk of having yet ANOTHER heart attack goes to the moon), and because his body physically cannot survive the surgery. The death rate is 25% even in a healthy patient.
Also, it was determined he could not survive either chemotherapy or radiation therapy. The conclusion of the doctor and surgeon is this: The cancer is inoperable and cannot be removed. His lungs are 35% collapsed, and surgery to repair it has too great a risk of killing him. His prognosis is 6 months, 12 if we’re lucky, but possibly as little as 2 months.
His regular pain medicine, Methadone, is no longer cutting the butter. It is believed they will bring him liquid morphine soon, but this raises two issues. One) The morphine may in all actuality not relieve his pain much better, and since users develop a tolerance rapidly, he may soon not even get a marginal amount of relief from it. Two) Although I will not name names here, it is my suspicion that, rather than watch him wither and die a slow, painful death, an unspecified loved one of his may perhaps either assist him in suicide, or perform a sort of “mercy killing”, since overdose by morphine would undoubtedly be quicker and less painful that his current fate. I estimate the chances of such an incident at roughly 15 percent.
LSAT training is a bloody nightmare
Theres no good way to describe the Law School Admission Test, but plenty of bad ones. Namely, “Long”, “Difficult”, “Stressful”, “Mind Straining”, and a few other good ones come to mind. The LSAT includes 6 parts; 2 Arguments (Logical Reasoning), 1 Reading Comprehension, 1 Games/Puzzles (Analytical Reasoning), and a 30-minute writing essay. There is also an experimental section, but you are not told which one it is. The experimental section does not even count towards your score (which is calculated by converting the number you got right to a scale of 120-180, 180 being a perfect score).
My first diagnostic test taken on December 11th showed a score of 148, right about average, but thats no where near good enough for me, I want 175 or higher. I have until February 2nd to take the test, so I’m positive I can reach my goal. At the moment, I’m using The Princeton Reviews LSAT 2008 book, in addition to a Barrons and Arco LSAT book, and a McGraw-Hill’s LSAT Logic Games, since it is where I need the most work. It is also the area of the test that seems to be the biggest gun shooting down potential law school candidates. Thus, this is where I will concentrate the majority of my studies.
I plan to take one LSAT practice test a week until test day, that way I’ll have done at least 8 full-lenght practice tests. In the final 2 weeks, I will be doing 3 a week, one Monday, one Thursday, and one Saturday. This will give me a total of about 12 full lenght tests completed, in addition to the many mini-tests I am doing. The LSAT score is the most important number on your law school application. In short: no good LSAT score = no admission to law school.
Those interested in taking one for the hell of it can find them by googling, “Free LSAT practice test”. It will take you roughly 3 hours to complete.
My practice scores have now reached 154, an average score, but not what I want. Guess I'll just have to keep at it.
My first diagnostic test taken on December 11th showed a score of 148, right about average, but thats no where near good enough for me, I want 175 or higher. I have until February 2nd to take the test, so I’m positive I can reach my goal. At the moment, I’m using The Princeton Reviews LSAT 2008 book, in addition to a Barrons and Arco LSAT book, and a McGraw-Hill’s LSAT Logic Games, since it is where I need the most work. It is also the area of the test that seems to be the biggest gun shooting down potential law school candidates. Thus, this is where I will concentrate the majority of my studies.
I plan to take one LSAT practice test a week until test day, that way I’ll have done at least 8 full-lenght practice tests. In the final 2 weeks, I will be doing 3 a week, one Monday, one Thursday, and one Saturday. This will give me a total of about 12 full lenght tests completed, in addition to the many mini-tests I am doing. The LSAT score is the most important number on your law school application. In short: no good LSAT score = no admission to law school.
Those interested in taking one for the hell of it can find them by googling, “Free LSAT practice test”. It will take you roughly 3 hours to complete.
My practice scores have now reached 154, an average score, but not what I want. Guess I'll just have to keep at it.
It Begins......
In my 25 years of life, I have never kept a diary, journal, notebook, or any other method of collecting my thoughts and ideas. Recent events and future changes are forcing me to reconsider this policy of mine. As time changes, so must we; thus this Blog was created to hold the myriad of thoughts that pass through my mind on a daily basis. Bear in mind that I have a strong sense of racial pride, and some of what I say may come off as “hate speech”. Well I have a saying for that, “The truth is called HATE by those who hate the TRUTH”. If something I say seems racist, I really am not concerned if you’re bothered. I say it because thats how I feel, and I never feel anything without good reason.
It would probably help, however, if the people reading this knew something about the one they are reading about.
I am 25 years old, born at sunrise on August 17th, 1982. I am six feet tall, weigh about 175 lbs. My hair is light brown with a slight mix of blonde, my eyes are considered to be “amber” colored, although they do change at times. I do not smoke nor do drugs, nor am I a big fan of drinking, although I might consider having one at a good restaurant on a special occasion. I am not very muscular, but most people arn’t so I’m not bothered. I am however a first dan (Degree) black belt in World Taekwondo Federation Taekwondo, and I also am an avid target shooter, using both my AR-15 and my .40 semi-auto pistol on a regular basis.
I graduated high school in 2002, in a class of about 129. It was a small school, perhaps 500 students or less. I was joint-enrolled in a community college, so I was in college before actually finishing high school. I became disinterested with the community college and, foolishly, stopped going, I was 22 when I decided to quit college. I held a job for a while in a company I was not too fond of, and because of events which I consider to be highly illegal, I lost my job. It was then I decided to go back to college and fulfill my dream of becoming a Prosecuting Attorney.
I was married on March 15th, 2006 to a young lady whom I’d previously met off the Internet. I am living proof Internet relationships CAN, with enough patience, work out just fine. We will celebrate our 2nd year anniversary this coming March. Without my wife to keep me sane, I fear I may have lost it a long time ago.
At the present moment I am enrolled at Troy University (www.troy.edu), working on my Bachelors of Science Degree in Criminal Justice, with a minor in psychology. I have always been extremely interested in the legal field, and it amuses me that most people going for a degree in CJ want to be police officers or corrections officers. Any idiot with a GED can become either, so why pay the money and put in the time? My Law School of choice won’t accept me without a Bachelors Degree, which is the reason I myself am going. I’d go now if they’d take me, but I digress, I take the Law School Admission Test (LSAT) in February. The score is good for 3 years..
In addition, I also am an avid ghost hunter, and co-founder of the Wiregrass Ghost Hunters. I’ll post some pictures from various hunts at a later date. I’m also Pagan by faith, and I do not agree with the Judeo-Christian religions nor their ways of life. In the end, you’re fighting over which invisible man in the sky is better, and this is a silly waste of time, time that could better be spent NOT arguing over such trivial matters.
Even if I am 25, I still hold an interest in video games. I’m not really concerned with Next-Generation consoles, I perfer the older classics; the NES and Genesis mainly. Flashy graphics no more guarentee a good game than 8-bit graphics guarentee a bad one. I think quality of games comes more from characters and storyline than anything else.
This should suffice for an introduction I’d say. I will say that I am a believer in brutal honesty, no matter how “Politically Incorrect”, “Racist”, or “Intolerant” it may sound. I don’t give a goddamn if you are offended or not, it is neither my place nor concern to tend to your bruised emotions. If you are so thin-skinned as to get upset over typed words on the Internet, perhaps you, not I, are the one in need of help.
It would probably help, however, if the people reading this knew something about the one they are reading about.
I am 25 years old, born at sunrise on August 17th, 1982. I am six feet tall, weigh about 175 lbs. My hair is light brown with a slight mix of blonde, my eyes are considered to be “amber” colored, although they do change at times. I do not smoke nor do drugs, nor am I a big fan of drinking, although I might consider having one at a good restaurant on a special occasion. I am not very muscular, but most people arn’t so I’m not bothered. I am however a first dan (Degree) black belt in World Taekwondo Federation Taekwondo, and I also am an avid target shooter, using both my AR-15 and my .40 semi-auto pistol on a regular basis.
I graduated high school in 2002, in a class of about 129. It was a small school, perhaps 500 students or less. I was joint-enrolled in a community college, so I was in college before actually finishing high school. I became disinterested with the community college and, foolishly, stopped going, I was 22 when I decided to quit college. I held a job for a while in a company I was not too fond of, and because of events which I consider to be highly illegal, I lost my job. It was then I decided to go back to college and fulfill my dream of becoming a Prosecuting Attorney.
I was married on March 15th, 2006 to a young lady whom I’d previously met off the Internet. I am living proof Internet relationships CAN, with enough patience, work out just fine. We will celebrate our 2nd year anniversary this coming March. Without my wife to keep me sane, I fear I may have lost it a long time ago.
At the present moment I am enrolled at Troy University (www.troy.edu), working on my Bachelors of Science Degree in Criminal Justice, with a minor in psychology. I have always been extremely interested in the legal field, and it amuses me that most people going for a degree in CJ want to be police officers or corrections officers. Any idiot with a GED can become either, so why pay the money and put in the time? My Law School of choice won’t accept me without a Bachelors Degree, which is the reason I myself am going. I’d go now if they’d take me, but I digress, I take the Law School Admission Test (LSAT) in February. The score is good for 3 years..
In addition, I also am an avid ghost hunter, and co-founder of the Wiregrass Ghost Hunters. I’ll post some pictures from various hunts at a later date. I’m also Pagan by faith, and I do not agree with the Judeo-Christian religions nor their ways of life. In the end, you’re fighting over which invisible man in the sky is better, and this is a silly waste of time, time that could better be spent NOT arguing over such trivial matters.
Even if I am 25, I still hold an interest in video games. I’m not really concerned with Next-Generation consoles, I perfer the older classics; the NES and Genesis mainly. Flashy graphics no more guarentee a good game than 8-bit graphics guarentee a bad one. I think quality of games comes more from characters and storyline than anything else.
This should suffice for an introduction I’d say. I will say that I am a believer in brutal honesty, no matter how “Politically Incorrect”, “Racist”, or “Intolerant” it may sound. I don’t give a goddamn if you are offended or not, it is neither my place nor concern to tend to your bruised emotions. If you are so thin-skinned as to get upset over typed words on the Internet, perhaps you, not I, are the one in need of help.
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